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shannon_aI've been afraid to write about it for fear of jinxing it (as silly as that sounds), but I've been feeling very good for the last week or so.
I've had energy. Friggin' lots of it.
In the last two days I got more done at work than I did during most weeks in October, November, or December. I wrote a whole new RPGnet review subsystem that links in appropriate items from the RPGnet Store on Tuesday, then on Wednesday I did a bunch of graphics work to complete integration of a game call Fist of Dragonstones into the Skotos community. That's on top of dealing with normal email, customer support, etc. (and not quite keeping up with administrative details, which I'm returning to today).
At night I've been bouncing around the house wondering what to do, because the time just seems to stretch on and on. I wrote three long reviews last week for Clans, Lair of the Rat-King, and Amun-Re on top of ripping through a great book that K. got me for Christmas called Middlesex. Last night I randomly tried a few nethack-like games, then sat down at did some more Skotos graphical work just to kill the time because there seemed to be so much of it.
I really want to get back into one of my creative projects, like an Aldryami article that's been sitting nearly complete at 6,000 words for months, but I'm afraid that I'll get started, and just start getting sick again: the fatigue, the pain, the time dilation.
The sickness has just cut into my life so badly in the last quarter of a year that I'm really afraid of it coming back. I've just been off the antibiotics for a bit more than week now, and I know it could be staging a comeback even now, but I want to try and believe I'm OK, that on doctor visit #3 for the same problem, someone finally did the right thing. I want to maintain my energy and be able to do stuff, to really give Skotos my effort and still have time and energy afterward to do creative work.
Just having to sit, and keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that things don't turn bad again is ... frustrating. Especially when everytime I feel the least bit tired, every time I have the slightest flare of pain, I worry, "Is it coming back? Should I be making a doctor's appointment? Do I need to start on the antibiotics again?"
I've had energy. Friggin' lots of it.
In the last two days I got more done at work than I did during most weeks in October, November, or December. I wrote a whole new RPGnet review subsystem that links in appropriate items from the RPGnet Store on Tuesday, then on Wednesday I did a bunch of graphics work to complete integration of a game call Fist of Dragonstones into the Skotos community. That's on top of dealing with normal email, customer support, etc. (and not quite keeping up with administrative details, which I'm returning to today).
At night I've been bouncing around the house wondering what to do, because the time just seems to stretch on and on. I wrote three long reviews last week for Clans, Lair of the Rat-King, and Amun-Re on top of ripping through a great book that K. got me for Christmas called Middlesex. Last night I randomly tried a few nethack-like games, then sat down at did some more Skotos graphical work just to kill the time because there seemed to be so much of it.
I really want to get back into one of my creative projects, like an Aldryami article that's been sitting nearly complete at 6,000 words for months, but I'm afraid that I'll get started, and just start getting sick again: the fatigue, the pain, the time dilation.
The sickness has just cut into my life so badly in the last quarter of a year that I'm really afraid of it coming back. I've just been off the antibiotics for a bit more than week now, and I know it could be staging a comeback even now, but I want to try and believe I'm OK, that on doctor visit #3 for the same problem, someone finally did the right thing. I want to maintain my energy and be able to do stuff, to really give Skotos my effort and still have time and energy afterward to do creative work.
Just having to sit, and keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that things don't turn bad again is ... frustrating. Especially when everytime I feel the least bit tired, every time I have the slightest flare of pain, I worry, "Is it coming back? Should I be making a doctor's appointment? Do I need to start on the antibiotics again?"
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Date: 2004-01-19 04:38 pm (UTC)I have to ask, though, 'cause I'm feeling bouncy -- did the energy last long enough to get my article up on the Skotos articles site (http://www.skotos.net/articles)? :-) I don't see it...
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Date: 2004-01-20 03:07 pm (UTC)You'll find that the articles are usually posted in the late afternoon, usually to the tune of, "$**(!!, I have an article to post today". I just need to finish up the section of automation that I haven't done yet, so it's all taken care of.